1. |
teaching functions
03:53
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hey friends
i don't you to be perfect
i just need you to exist
i know it looked i was hopeful
cost a lot [of energy,] selling it
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oh god
how can
anyone
begin again
god don't talk
and none of you text
so i'm just listening
hey friends
i don't need you to be perfect
i just need you to exist
tell me about all your struggles
so i can hang on to help with them
tell me about what you're doing
to keep life worth living—it
is so
goddamn
expensive
i can't
possibly
be sustainable
for every
input
there's just
one output
i guess that's
just how
i function now
without
you all
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2. |
super mario galaxy 2
03:50
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[version 1: x3x055
the craziest thing about jumping off the ladder you've been climbing your entire life
ever since you could climb
is rolling your neck around, spotting the landing
and realizing
i'm not falling at all. i'm not falling at all. i'm not falling at all.
i'm not falling at all. i'm not falling at all. i'm not falling at all.
and even though i had thought I was way off the ground
i'm not falling at all. i'm not falling at all. i'm not falling at all.
i had basically gone nowhere
and i
understand in abstract what it's like, this thing love
this memory of dying, the dog
the joy that can't cut through the slog
even though it once was
big enough to talk about and own
going home and hearing reading about
some constant upward tug
some constant joyous shove
and feeling more scared than anything
looking and knowing
i'm not falling at all. i'm not falling at all. i'm not falling at all.
i'm not falling at all. i'm not falling at all. i'm not falling at all.
and even though i had thought we were way off the ground
i'm not falling at all. i'm not falling at all. i'm not falling at all.
i had basically gone nowhere
serious
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3. |
naviance
04:56
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capo 5
[300230]
my kids are writing letters to students who are hurricane survivors
someone asked me 'is just keep swimming' offensive [to include]
i mean, kinda
it's def not tasteful, no
and i am writing letters of recommendation
for people i don't get to see daily anymore
and i don't know why i put so much pressure
on myself to get these things right
but i do
and i heard that writing as a skill is going away
and i can't disagree [and i'm like]
just take my children
i swear they're awesome
[300230; x02030; 320030]
take my children
i swear they're awesome
you'll really love them
as i have loved them
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4. |
stop being clever
02:38
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5. |
enjambment
04:17
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capo 4
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i don't fucking care anymore
i don't fucking care
i haven't felt like i could sleep in around five weeks without
letting anyone down
i fade in and out like
a laptop's bad battery
i'm a smart phone
small supercomputer
thin i overheat
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do you know what i mean
change my name to disaster
an out-of-room crash that
chills out on the floor when everything is tired
in lieu of flowers
send alcohol
to teachers and nurses
my favorite curse is
fuck you
there's a way to say it to
someone who loves you
my favorite phrase is
i feel that too
i want to be honest
but not scare you
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the aglet got shredded on my left shoe
i'm not sure at all how that happened
it was a jarring fringe I only noticed
when I bent down to tie it
rosencrantz + guildenstern are dead
+ so are my grandparents and all of their friends
anyone they looked up to or hated
i take pictures all the time
because no one will remember any of this
i've gotten really obsessed w/ photographs
of the great depression
i love seeing people being normal
in ways i can't imagine
rosencrantz + guildenstern are dead
+ so are all those peoples' parents
+ most of their friends
performers of stage shows they loved or hated
they didn't take any of their own pictures
+ nothing they remembered is remembered again
all anyone can do is guess
i remember being seven and realizing i will never think like this ever again
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7. |
virginia loves pickles
03:23
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a road trip to a funeral
another halfway tuxedo
i'm sorry for ducking you again
it's been a lot each of these weekends
someone's getting sick
the world's big shadow hand reaches
again
the pokemon movie hit us hard
multiple deaths and religious implications
how many wakes does one go to
before they are woke
a rainfall
let the water hold me down
let the water hold me down
i couldn't believe it
in the vending machine
little dumb things
costing 2.50
i guess virginia loves pickles
kosher pickles
you didn't ask if i got one
i'll never tell
i'll never tell
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8. |
a lot of questions
02:50
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a green fruit candy labeled 'classic series'
asks a lot of questions, makes you search for meaning
like when that crew ahead of you said without context
'we crossing out here. we ready to die out here.'
an all-time line
said by jaywalkers
ignoring the light
your face turns paler
and red at the same time
the wind is serrated
or your leggings are trash
and properly rated
when carrot soup looks like pumpkin pie paste
i don't know what it means
i hide my phone from myself on weekends
so i have less to misread
and i really haven't had a full conversation
with my friend at work in a couple of weeks, so:
hope it's probably okay.
i'm doing okay.
how are you?
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9. |
sensitive to light
02:56
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a splitting headache because i'm sensitive to light
you joke that since you're in my life, it should hurt all the time
but you blackout the room, pull the curtains all the way to the side
the gesture's nice
i close my eyes
ditch me in a minute
read a novel please
i'm not being sarcastic
please take whatever you need
you make yourself some tea
watch jeopardy! or something
and let it
let away
the splitting headache because i'm sensitive to light
i pop two liquid-gels like the water'll put out the fire
but you are a scientist you know how a grease fire is smothered
it takes a lot of time
waiting out
and having something to look forward to
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